Friday, November 30, 2007

Messiah Concert 2007

Christmas has always been a time of celebration for me since I started attending Sunday School as a girl; however, it was only in 2002 that I became aware of the advent season in the church calender. It was by being a part of TCU and attending church in Japan that I was exposed to this wonderful time of waiting in anticipation for the celebration of the birth of Jesus. Ever since then, my preparation for the Christmas season has always been one waiting in music and reflection.

TCI holds the Messiah Concert annually. I remember that my final year singing for this concert was the 20th anniversary of it being held. Last Friday, taking the opportunity of my days left in Japan, I made my way to my Alma mater to enjoy the good ol' days once more.

It is always great to be there. The recent happenings and the approach of the Christmas season has brought out the touchy-feely side of me, and I started to become more sensitive to every item that carries memory of any sort. Walking through the school grounds allowed me to reflect on how my daily life on campus used to be, sitting at the dinning hall reminds me of all the great time my school mates and I had during meals, etc. My heart went "Aww..." when I walked past the administrative building and saw the lamp my fellow classmates and I presented TCU in appreciation during our graduation emitting a warm glow in the foyer.

The concert was beautiful as always. Many familiar faces were on the stage and I was so proud when a close friend in every aspect of my student life was the soprano soloist. I have seen her blossom and mature from her days of being a TCU student and furthering her passion for music as a TCTS student. Now, graduated, she stood gracefully on stage adorned in a fabulous turqiose dress and her voice was simply BEAUTIFUL! Tenda-sensei conducted the choir and orchestra passionately. I enjoyed the concert by singing from my seat on the pews. It is amazing that after all these while, I am still able to sing my parts in key without a book before me.

It was a wonderful evening as I also managed to catch up with the ever loving and caring faculty and staff members of TCI. Mori-san was sweet as ever as I brought her up to date with what is happening on my side. She presented me with my first Christmas present with a touching note to warm up my Christmas in Macao. Sugitani-sensei was cheerful as usual and I did spend some time talking to お父さんandお母さん. The evening was close to perfect.

The Messiah concert has often put the songs Handel wrote in my heart and I will be singing them for the days to come until Christmas. Now I know that my life at TCU has conditioned my soul for the seasons that wherever I am I will still be able to feel the warmth and closeness of everything that means so much to me.

Thursday, November 29, 2007

Being Myself

Murphy's Law: If anything can go wrong, it will.

True, but I guess it is how one handles him or herself in such situations that makes a difference. Being the pessimistic person I am, I always would think up the worse case scenario, and that would normally be the threshold of my patience and sanity. Since I do have a rather imaginative mind, nothing I have experienced thus far supersede the madness that I could come up with. In majority cases, I would actually find the whole ordeal rather funny, and "that's not too bad" would be my response. Of course, I can not deny my gender stereotype that I do whine and complain about the whole incident. However, things will always work themselves out one way or another, and I do enjoy the outcome quite often.

Since the decision of my relocation came to me, I have been making plans to make the most out of my remaining days here in Japan. In contrary to what most people think, I have actually started to pack and striking off days to my move. It is not too much on excitement, but more likely that I would just want to get this over with. Thus, as I busy myself with such plans, it ticks me off a little when things do not go my way. I guess I have taken for granted the convenience of staying at the ol' campus block, but no worries, something will work out. The other thing that irritates me today is the cut across my right knuckle from last night. It bled, and it still stings. I need some TLC on that but I guess a band-aid will do for now.

Taking my mind of what bites, let's talk about my one of my favorite pick-ups... SHOES! No matter how I feel, a good pair of shoes do cheer me up. It does not matter whether I am fat or thin, the right pair that completes the day's look, PERFECT!

I wish to dedicate my current mood-lifter to my boots. I just bought a new pair from Harajuku Tuesday night and seasoned them the very next day. These will be my 4th pair. My boots list: MNG boots (2000) bought with financial assistance from dad, Doc Marten's (2002) Suzanne's gift from London, and Internet-ordered western boots (2005) for I was bored in the dorms. Now I have a brand new pair of tan horse riding boots that ranks #1 in comfort. The cream-colored western boots and black MNG ones hold a tie for 2nd place. As cool as my Doc Marten's look, they are painful to wear and I have only had them on a handful of times.

Well, it seems to me that whenever I feel low in the mood looking stylish and good often bring compliments that brightens the day. I know I have been over-spending a tad of late, but let me have my piece of cake!

Wednesday, November 28, 2007

The Macao Move

The news is out and I have fulfill my obligations to inform the necessary parties; therefore, it is no secret and safe for me to put it on public domain announcing my move to Macao.

After a LONG and tedious process, my visa for Macao has been granted and I will be stationed at our Macao offshore office beginning January 2008. Nevertheless, I will be moving down from Tokyo to the island on December 17 for my apartment hunting and to sort out some relocation issues before the company breaks for our winter vacation. The ideal is for me to settle down and ready to work when we open for the new year.

I have been in Japan waiting for its approval (or rather, rejection) for months now. Even though it is not the answer I hoped for, I am glad that the wait is over. Many of you know that I really would rather stay in Japan than to move to that island. Although it is a city of entertainment and has its attractions, I have been there, and I do not want to be there. I have my strong preference to stay in Japan, and the news was a little disheartening.

Many would have thought I had cried my eyes out since the news broke. Honestly, I did cry a little on Thursday mainly because I really wanted to stay and discussing with a friend did make me a little more emotional. (Yeah, I am not as tough as everyone thinks I am, and do have an emotional side.) But I did make my peace with the entire situation. In fact, it was about a month ago that I actually sat down and committed whatever the outcome was into the hands of God. After speaking to a few key persons, of course, they all understood and agreed that it was better for me to stay, but I have been encouraged to be Suemae and take in whatever that comes my way.

Confidants have been comforting me through encouraging words that I will grow stronger with this move. I will become more mature and independent. (True enough, but seriously, if I do grow any stronger... fat chance of me finding people who can accommodate Suemae without getting the wrong idea. My strengths has been misread as arrogance to those who hardly know me. Thus, it is not because I am an ice-queen, it is just because I have gone through so much that it needs a lot to bring out some enthusiasm in me.) Many has also tried to tell me all the good things about Macao like it world class bungee-jumps, entertainment, etc. It would only be appealing to me if I had people who I enjoy their company joining me in such activities. Bungee jumping alone? Hah!

There is so much in my thoughts and plans right now but I am sorting things out in order to make my move as painless as possible. With the relocation arrangements and trying to straighten things out, I will most probably be looking towards a Christmas on my own. However, nothing to worry as I have went through it last year being alone at a place I did not wish to be; nevertheless, I did enjoy myself and received blessings I did not imagine. So, it is not all bad! It would give me time to sort out my private life too! I will be fine.

I would deeply appreciate your prayers and support. Please pray that my stay in Macao will be a short but fulfilling one. I do not plan to get comfortable over there. The whole experience could be made easier if someone is to GIVE me USD 10,000. (LAUGHS!) It would be nice if you come visit me there, hear me whine, keep me company, and together we can tackle the fun stuff together. You are always welcome to visit as I will make sure that my new accommodation will be one I can all my own, comfortable and welcoming to all my loved ones.

Monday, November 26, 2007

Tokyo DisneySea, Winter 2007

Whenever I am down, my memories serve as the best comfort and encouragement in picking me up. I could always go shopping but lately it is just too difficult to get into the mood of shopping, and when I do, there is often nothing that captures my need or interest. Furthermore, retail therapy only comforts a little in a short time.

Last Monday, I went to DisneySea after returning to Tokyo from my company's off site training. I was really tired but since it is the only day during the week where I can find time to go without skipping work, the trip was planned as it coincided with the schedules of my buddies too. The after 6 pass made it an affordable trip just for fun's sake. It is always great to visit Tokyo Disney Resort, so many memories there... Great times.

It was my first time to visit DisneySea for their winter/Christmas celebration. It was very windy that evening and I was still exhausted from the company trip. To our surprise there was a crowd that evening. Hmm, maybe it is the Christmas celebration and people flock to DisneySea for the romantic illumination and all. We only managed to get on 4 rides (?), watch the special Christmas light up, and fireworks. It was too bad that Sunil, Matthew and I were not able to go for the "Tower of Terror" as the line was so long. When we actually wanted to stand in line, it was closed for the day. Lucky us! (Not!) We faced the wrong way for the picture taken on the "Indiana Jones" ride, did not feel much on "Raging Spirits" as we have ridden it too many times, sat in "2000 Leagues Under the Sea" for the line was really short, but enjoyed "Journey to the Center of the Earth" best.

Anyways, we had a fun time and it was great just being able to spend time together. This trio has been to Tokyo Disney Resort for the 4th time together now and every trip was a memorable one. Blogging about it does bring out some commercialized holiday spirit. I love the place and the people who I make every trip there are the best in many ways. Here are some pictures, enjoy!

Retail Therapy Weekend



The past week has been a real roller coaster ride for me. The extremes in the highs and lows simply left me in exhaustion and I am finding it difficult to start my week.

I was looking forward to the Thanksgiving weekend as I am excited for my Christmas preparations in Japan. I was planning to plan my advent calendar and get some decorations set up over the weekend, but my long weekend was turned into days of emotional outburst that led to many retail therapy sessions instead. However, not all was bad as I was blessed with the company of very patient people.

Most of what has been bugging me has been mentioned in my Thanksgiving entry, but I have found some peace and comfort throughout the weekend when SiQin, a friend from my home church, spent Saturday and Sunday with me. Our adventures to Kamakura visiting the temples and shrines took my mind off the negatives, and our conversations shared put comfort into what we are facing right now. Even though we were soon tired out by our train rides and the weekend crowd at the ever famous tourist spot in Kanagawa, we even spent time hanging out we Jewel at Sakuragi-cho in the evening. We had a fun time shopping, having dinner, enjoying coffee, and walks at the entertainment focused area of Yokohama Landmark Tower. Spending time with the girls did me good.

Sunday did me good too. After having a morning cuppa at Starbucks, Siqin and I went to church. We went our separate ways after the service was over and I did some window shopping as I waited for Sunil. Sunil and I rendezvous at Snoopy Town and went through our usual Sunday people watching at Yoyogi Park before making our way to Shibuya on foot. There we met up with Siqin, and I went for another round of shopping to cheer myself up. Sunil left for a meeting around 5, and Siqin and I had a good evening shopping in Shibuya and making our way back to Harajuku for dinner. After a scrumptious meal and a final stop at a store for last minute shopping, we went back to my place, collected her stuff and I saw her off at Shinjuku.

My mood for Christmas is currently on the low. (Of course, true Christmas celebration and preparation has nothing to do with my mood, so you need not worry as I will be able to pull myself together soon.) This week will be a busy week for me to sort things out and make decisions for the year end. I am still caffiene high from the many lattes and mochas I had in the past 2 days. (The effect of caffiene on me is worse than of alcohol.) The retail therapy sessions did cheer me up a little, as I have some seasonal clothes of my choice now. The harvest thus far covers socks, kitchenware, 3 tops, a pair of jeans, and an organizer. I was really close to getting myself a Christmas dress but it did not look as cute on me as I had imagine. No worries, the search continues as I will be shopping some more spending money on another pair of boots, a hat, gloves, etc. Hmm, maybe I should go get some purikura taken too. Those will cheer me up for now.

Thursday, November 22, 2007

My Thanksgiving Entry

Thanksgiving. I have learned to embrace this culture as my own by using this holiday to reflect on how much I should be thankful for.

At this point of my life I am thankful for the many blessings God has bestowed upon me. There are the good and bad encounters in my life, but I truly believe that all things happen for a purpose, and there is something for me learn to become a better person. Many things has happened since the beginning of this year, and I have embarked on a journey chasing after my dreams. I see myself grow and this quote will best summarize what I hold close to me in times of change and trial, "The most beautiful flower is one that blooms in adversity." Therefore, I thank God for His faithfulness.

I was hoping that I will have the answers to a few aspects of my life by Thanksgiving. Whether the outcome was the one I wanted or dread, I wanted to know in order for me to set my heart and mind straight before God and myself. Even though I have my whines and complaints, I am still thankful for everything He has given. I am truly thankful for the almost 5 months I have been here in Tokyo. My stay here was supposed to be a brief one, possibly just 2 weeks, but it has been extended until today. Within these few months, I have been able to reconnect with everything I really missed during my time in Malaysia, and now hold the answers to the areas which I have been struggling with. Even though there are details that I do not prefer, I know He is faithful. I should not always get what I want, as I will indeed be a spoiled and arrogant person. There are bits where it is rather difficult for me to accept, but I am overall happy. It just takes time to fully digest and be content.

A conversation with someone over the week made me realize that there are people out there who thinks that I am having life delivered to me on a platter. I would relate to some as I am just lucky, but deep down inside, I know that my God is a good God, He loves me, and He is in control. He knows what is best for me. He knows my desires, and blesses me with what I want in His will. He is not Santa Clause, but gives me what I dare ask in prayer with a twist of humor, but all of it works out that I grow to become more dependant on Him. I find myself in thanksgiving in almost any situation now. (Of course, with whines and complaints at first, but I know that, at the end of the day, I will look back, smile and know that I am loved by Him.)

Saving this to top my thanksgiving list, I am thankful for each person that God has placed in my life. This extends to friends, loved ones, mentors, family, and especially those who care for me. I am just a simple girl who can get on people's nerves easily. When I am challenged and put in situations I do not wish to be in, all I want to do is complain, make a face, show that I am upset, and the last thing I want is someone to tell me how I should be optimistic and look at the situation positively. For those who really know me well enough, they know that at the end, I will always do the right thing and emerge out of the situation doing well, standing tall and strong. So, just let me whine and complain. I have gone through enough in my life and know that everything will work out for the best; but just let me be human, be a girl, and let me have my share of anger, disappointment, frustration, and tears. Thus, I thankful for all the wonderful people out there who love me for who I am. It is because of you, I am given the opportunity to be where I am today and have a passion towards my future I look forward to. Even though I seem strong, but I would like you to know that I am able to be so due to your prayers, support and encouragement.

Even though I did not have my share of turkey and pumpkin pie, I raise my glass...
"Happy Thanksgiving!"


Wednesday, November 21, 2007

Commuting with Trains

The weather is getting colder now. Snow days have been increasing up north and soon the ski lodges around the country will be at the peak of business. I do hope to see snow in Tokyo very soon. Although it is cold and that does not extend to the physical climate for me, I do hope the that the coming days will bring news that will warm me up for the new year. I see myself basking in the sun on the train platform this morning absorbing as much warmth possible.

Platforms, trains... These simple daily encounters often captivate my thoughts and attention without fail. Since I have to commute to work daily, I have become a time conscious commuter who needs to catch her 9:24am Tama Express if she wants to get to work on time. I have an alarm on my phone telling me I need to leave my apartment otherwise I will miss my ride. I have been pampered by the close proximity of my place to the station that I always seem to rush out the door and barely make it on time. The challenge moves a step up when I have to lug my laptop with me on my 10cm heels. By the time, I make it to the station and move up the flight of stairs, I am almost out of breath with sore legs most of the time.

Boarding the trains and my ride on them also have their interesting stories. We have big old Japanese "salary men" pushing themselves on the train without thinking about the other passengers in the already packed train. We have couples who share the morning after gestures and conversations. We have men happily browsing through porn magazines in a packed train without a care whether the women around them feel offended, or the nosey ones who enjoy their morning read over other's shoulders to catch glimpse of various magazines, newspapers, books, mobile phone screens, handheld video games, etc. Then, we also have the general morning commuters who look good, smell nice, but some of them dozing off in their seats. We sway back and forth on the Tama Express that runs from the Odakyu Line into the Chiyoda Subway Line.

The trains are packed most of the time. I have always wondered whether taking the trains to work at other times would be better; I learned my lesson, however, that it might not be such a good idea after all, for the local lines were WORSE! I was up early and ready for work exceptionally early last Friday and decided to take the local trains instead of the Tama Express. Man! It was so packed that I almost threw up with the stuffiness, the squeezing, and the unusual motion sickness I get from a REALLY packed train. So, I am thankful for the Tama Express and will try my best to stick to taking that in the mornings.

My other commutes around Tokyo also has its interesting sights. What I was intrigued lately is the way how the female gender sits. I assumed that in Tokyo, the high fashion and civilized city, ladies here would know how to sit properly. I was shocked to find well dressed women from late teens to late 40s in their business attire or fashionable casual wear would be exposing what is under their skirts by sitting with their legs not neatly put together. (I know the sentence is rather wordy, but I am trying my best to put my thoughts in a very polite way.) Believe me, the sight was nasty even when they tried to put things on their laps to cover! SIGH!

I find my rides on the trains really interesting and try to make it as fun as possible by observing others. Who says Japanese train rides are boring?

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

By Helping Our Clients Prosper, We Achieve Our Goals.

The company off site training that lasted 4 days was very enjoyable since we had beautiful weather through out the weekend. Putting emphasis on training, this was not a trip that focuses on fun and relaxation; we had meetings, reports, training, and discussions. Apart from the highly physical activity of dodge ball, I was enlightened by the reports given about my company's ranking in the worldwide organization and gained some new skills with the training provided. The highlight of the weekend was that the whole company participated in the making of our company's mission statement. Our final few hours of the off site training was then spent reviewing and presenting our personal goals and commitments. (Yep, we sold our soul to the company... cheeky smiles.)

I have learned so much on this trip with the company. Everyone in the company was present and it was fun to socialize with them outside the office. However, I have to say that there were times when too much information was shared.

In a nutshell, I truly enjoyed the resort but do have complains about the food served there. We had an excellent seafood dinner ala Japanese style on Saturday where I had my fill of sashimi and Japanese delicacies. YUMMY! It was great being able to sleep in a spacious room with a great view. I enjoyed my morning and evening sauna and jacuzzi; and I was really refreshed with the walks taken in the beautiful surrounding and fresh air. At night, the skies were simply amazing. We could see an endless sea of stars above us. It was marvelous.

Now, I am back in the office catching up with the regular workload... busy Busy BUSY! The bright side is that this Friday is Labor Thanksgiving Day; yes! Holiday! Oh yes, it is Ron's birthday today. I have been too busy lately that I almost forgot. Well, since we are far apart, this little brother of mine would not be getting any immediate attention from me. Sorry, Ron... I will make it up to you soon.

Friday, November 16, 2007

OUT OF THE OFFICE

Today begins our company's off site training at Blueberry Hill Katsuura, Chiba. This place is BEAUTIFUL! Lush green lawn surrounds every single building, breath-taking scenery of the ocean and the hills, and to top it all, my room is GORGEOUS! Seriously, my invitation is still open to whoever is willing to come out here. (This company is nothing but generous to its employees! When it comes to hotel rooms, I am like the pickiest person around... but MAN!!! Even I am impressed at the relax and recreation centered resort. The best part is, all of us are given our own mini suite!)

Check out the link... I kid you not!
http://www.blueberry-hill.co.jp/main.php?lang=en

I guess I will grab a blanket and lie down on the grass after dinner to enjoy the stars tonight. The air is great, the classy spacious well furnished room comes with a jacuzzi and sauna... what more can an girl ask for? (Well, it would be nice to hang out with my buddies and loved ones here than work mates. It would be a totally awesome slumber party!)

Keeping this entry short as I seriously need to take things slowly before the madness of training with my "extremely lively colleagues" begin. Someone mentioned that I will be working 2 weeks straight with this off site training over the weekend, but I am going to take as many long walks and sleep (however I can manage) over these four days. Have a great weekend too!

Thursday, November 15, 2007

Disgrace to the Internet Community

It is because of people like you the Internet gets a bad name!

We thank the Internet today for making the world smaller and accessible. Decades ago, we would never imagine that it is possible to be communicating with people who are scattered across the world instantly in our living rooms. Long hours at the office are bearable as we are able to have entertaining breaks. Our human network has grown through portals such as MSN, Yahoo, etc.

However, since the days of ICQ there are some who misuses the Internet that causes many to dislike chatting, such as yours truly. There are creeps out there who randomly search for people to piss off everyday. I, personally, only use chat programs such as MSN and Skype to communicate with friends and family. Now, since I work in a company that owns an offshore office, we use Skype to link all office members and enable our clients to contact us at top speed during our online hours. Only in rare cases, I would actually answer to the call of a stranger.

Of recent years, I tend to open up a little and do give some opportunities for interesting yet decent people to contact me. I enjoy the diversity in language and culture since my ACTS-es days, and would like to make new friends and improve my language abilities.

BUT... Today, at work, there was this twit who should be banned from using the Internet forever. (I apologize for the name calling but this guy really ticked me off, and you know that guys do not tick me off easily.) First, he made an assumption that I was in a bad mood when I had no idea what he was talking about. He used some weird English greeting that made no sense. (Well, I am very particular about communicating in any form of language. I am learning and hope that I get to understand what others are trying to say. Sometimes, I do tend to be a little strict with a language that I have the upper hand. Red neck in the making?) And then, he moved on to pick on my ethnicity and nationality. He called me a "stupid little alien"! After politely telling him that I thought what he said was rather rude, he told me to "F*ck off!" Appalling, is it not? It is because of people like such who discourages others to have faith in making new friends online. It also reflects badly on the country and community this person is from.

So, dear friends of the Internet community, I implore you to educate anyone you know the manners and etiquette for Internet use for the sake of its current and future users. We enjoy the diversity of languages used on the Internet, but foul language in any tongue should be reprimanded.

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Worry Wart

I am low on writing juices today. There is just too much going on in my head right now that I think I might blow up anytime. I guess it would be a contradiction to my earlier entry this month about bamboo. At this moment, I am as stubborn as a rock and really want things to go my way.

A spoke to me last evening regarding my possible relocation to little Vegas. He spoke with confidence according to his reasoning that the delay in response from little Vegas seem like good news for him. I understand his position and it was the deal that I signed up for. But seriously, almost everyone knows that I would LOVE to stay in Tokyo. I am starting to get more and more restless by the day. The more confident he gets, the more I start to crumble.

There is nothing to debate or discuss at the moment. He knows my preference but I respect his decision. All we can do is wait. ... ... SIGH!!! When will we know???

Hmm, maybe I should go crazy and do something really spontaneous. But what?
Tick, tock, tick, tock... I have been waiting for ages now. Please let there be an answer soon, and I hope it would be an answer that I will be happy with.

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

A Taste of Sweetness

GOOD MORNING, PEOPLE!!!
It is a beautiful day outside. Even though I did not enjoy the most eventful evening last night, my mood could not resist the effects of the almost perfect weather. My thoughts have been weighing me down of late, and to pamper myself this lovely day (since I still have to be at work) I treated myself to a McDonald's breakfast.

The last I remembered having a McD's breakfast was during the days at JAC. Siti and I would talk about it and then get them to deliver our food to us since we were just too lazy and sleepy (yeah... even in the mornings) to go get breakfast from the nearest store which was close to 5 minutes walk away. Laughs. Good times. Good times.

ANYWAYS... since my last visit to Japan at the end of January, I have always wanted to grab breakfast at McD's over here. (Well, I think the service standards in addition to the quality of taste in the franchise over here are much better than anywhere else in the world that I have been.) They just launched McGriddles in the middle of January. I was so fascinated at the advertisements and really wanted to try it. It has been a while,but finally, after close to 4.5 months stationed here, I went to grab some breakfast at the closest McDonald's I know of on my way to work.

Well, I reckon many of you might not know what McGriddles are since there are only available in US, Canada, and Japan thus far. (Do correct me if I am wrong.) So, here is a little reading material that might help.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/McGriddles

Man! It was good. It is like having my maple syrup pancakes together with a hearty meal of bacon and eggs topped with cheese; throw in a bowl of salad and some fruits and I am one happy girl. However, since the standard McD's breakfast combo comes with hash browns, I am content with that. I will just have my vegetable juice when I get to the office.

There is a downside to the scrumptious breakfast I just had; it has a rather high calorie count. A McGriddle breakfast can easily cover half of the calories I need a day. Yup, it was good, but I don't think I would be having it THAT often. Although winter is almost here and I do need some blubber to keep me warm in that apartment of mine, but I think I should watch what I eat. Nevertheless, I would recommend you to try it, even just once!

Sunday, November 11, 2007

AND THE SEASON FOR COMMERCIALISM BEGINS!!!

Over the weekend (Well, technically since Thursday) I have been out at malls and I could not believe my visual and audio senses that such places are already decked with Christmas decor and mechandises. It was merely a week since Halloween! I do not recall whether any highlights of the Christmas season was shown in any of the city's hot spots over the previous weekend, but man! It was like the elves of Christmas commercialism came to town and turned it around within a day.

Now, everywhere I go there are Christmas illuminations, decorations, and songs putting everyone into the festive mood of commercialized shopping. Sigh! Well, it does serve as a reminder that I should get my shopping done and mail them off soon since I am away from home again. However, it also unleashes the tinge of sadness as although I have a 2-week long Christmas-Year-End-Break but I could not make any plans to travel due to my landing status. (Major SIGH!)

Anyways, I will not be bogged down by the negative and look towards to celebrating Christmas with joy this year. It seems rather strange as people are slowly getting into the Christmas mood even before Thanksgiving. Nevertheless, I should start filling up my schedule for the next few weekends. Since I have yet to know the results whether I will be spending Christmas in Japan or not, I will just have to be content with helping out at TUC with the decorations at church and the crafts for the homeless on the first weekend of December instead of whining about whether I should make plans for the holidays or to decorate my apartment. I also hope to attend the Messiah concert at TCU. This year, the soloist will be taken by the alumni of our school! I am looking forward to that, and possibly, be a student again and attend the TCU Christmas Party and carolling.

The weather is getting colder, carols and popular Christmas music fills the air... Why not enjoy it?

Saturday, November 10, 2007

Date, Dates, and Dating...

I think I have contextualized my understanding and application of the word "date" that to me, it carries a lighter connotation to the popular meaning. I would approach a date as an outing of two individuals hanging out, catching up, getting to know each other. It is also an appointment made to meet another half. Therefore, I have been on dates with almost everyone who I know from family members to buddies, from guy friends to a close female teacher. It has become a notion that I casually overuse, and of the recent months I find the need to redefine this vocabulary in order not to embarrass myself or come across rude to the other party.

My general understanding of the word date is for two individuals, generally of the opposite gender, to get to know each other better through activities shared the day. I enjoy going out with my guy friends alone, even though I know that we are nothing more but close friends, just to catch up and find out things that I seem to overlook on a daily basis. I have guy friends who are just shy, and going out on a date with them gives them exposure on what it would be like on a real date in the future. (You know, it is like practicing how to act and speak with girls. However, sometimes I am too much a buddy that they fail to see me as just a girl. This would then put the outlook of our outing on the fence.) I use the same word when I spend time with my gal pals too; simply because it sounds nice.

Now, I have reached a point in my life where the people who asks me out on dates do not share the closeness of the aforementioned. As mere acquaintances attracted by physical appearance and first impressions, it is hardly likely that we can casually enjoy the evening without contemplating the intentions of the other half. These guys randomly come from people I met through business connections or someone who I randomly come across. How then should I carry myself through a date? What should my approach about the event be? Should the invitation of "We should go out on a date sometime..." be taken seriously--that the guy likes my character thus far, would like to find out more whether we match, and events that follow might lead to a beginning of a different relationship?

The popular understanding of a date is not just a mere appointment to meet at a specific time, but it is considered especially as a social engagement between two persons that often has a romantic character. This means that I have every right to expect the guy to be a gentleman, and bear the responsibility to behave and look like a lady, in the context that we are gathering more information through the shared activity to explore the possibilities of a deeper relationship. It is also opportunities for either party to score brownie points in giving the right (honest and truthful) impression of character and personality to the other. So, I guess I can remain old-school in this area and allow him to show me a good time in his taste.

Does "romantic" as an adjective to the event, then, mean candlelight dinners, visiting couple spots, or participating in events that would sweep one off her feet? Again the popular understanding and expectation of the word would refer to items or events marked by expressions of love or affection, and possibly conducive to or suitable for lovemaking. Here, I would reserve the idea only to my dates who I specifically have interests in. Nevertheless, I would appreciate it if my dates are all romantic in the sense that they are responsive to the appeal of what is idealized, heroic, or adventurous. I find nothing more attractive than a guy who has a passion for life, a strong hold on his ideals and principles, and yet comfortable to explore the beyond in the sharing of thoughts and philosophies. (Dreamy sigh...)

So, I guess with all that was mentioned, I should just keep things simple and be a girl when I guy does ask me out. This means I will try to expect less of my ideal and leave the door open for the possibility of something romantic to happen between us. I can hear vividly my guy friends in my head telling me to give the guy a chance without scrutinizing him in every manner, and my gal pals asking me to be more like a girl enjoying come what may rather than taking the direct approach of merely hanging out with the guy and trying to be his buddy.

Friday, November 9, 2007

An Unexpected Treat

Change of plans may not turn out to be as disasterous as I used to see it. Could this be wisdom acquired as I walked down the path of maturity? It does reflect patience and flexibility. It would seem pretentious, but I would say my years in Japan made me like a bamboo, emerging strong from a spread out network of roots, growing tall and firm in body, but flexible to the winds of change. I laugh at my younger self who used to scowl when things just do not go the way I planned them to be; especially, when I have put much heart and effort in the planning process, to find myself dissapointed after all the anticipation.

I had a close to perfect morning today, and it was nothing according to my initial plans. With only 4.5 hours of sleep and a day of work ahead of me, I am not irritated nor grumpy by any means. (Wow!)

My initial plans after a long day of work yesterday was to hang out with my buddies after an appointment out in Chiba, get a good night's sleep, have breakfast in the morning and travel back to Tokyo for work. Well, after waiting for half hour, my appointment was cancelled, or rather rescheduled, and I had dinner ala solo. With the extra time, I decided to do some window shopping at the mall and got some toiletries before meeting up with the guys. It was a treat when Mark joined the usual trio, and we all went for gyoza indulging in my whim. We had a good time just shoving down dumplings, and soon, Sunil had craving for his favorite ramen. The four of us head back to campus with Mark carrying me on his bike! We were cheering him on as we rode up the bridge near the Hokuso Park. I salute this Sri Lankan for the good sport and energy!

The trio rendezvous with a new member, Kazuto, and cycled off into the night in search of Sunil's ramen. We had many laughs and a late night and I only went to bed close to 1. Bed, is a relative term. Due to unforseen circumstances I was sleeping in the living room but utterly content with the heating mat/carpet and the wonderful blankets and pillows Ching Boi brought me. It was nice keeping warm all night in contrast to the chilly apartment of mine where I had to pull out a second blanket the night before, and still waking up cold. (You know you are cold when you are curled up in bed instead of streching out relaxing.) I was up in a few hours, prepared myself, and took a nice morning walk towards the station area.

My rescheduled appointment turned out to be a breakfast meeting where I had french toast over a good conversation with much to learn. "Grammar is like algebra." It could be easily grasped when we have good understanding of the basics, and we will soon notice that what we thought difficult and complex is just the layering and combination of all the simple basic form that we know. Thus, keep [the concept] simple, and it would be a piece of cake. (Someone should have shared this piece of wisdom, and maybe, I would have done better in my Additional Mathematics back in high school.) After a fill in my tummy and soul, another surprise unrevel itself when I bumped into Sunil on the train to Tokyo. What a treat! I have always like Sunil in a suit; very smart-looking indeed. We shared a good train ride together discussing about stuff. Despite the change in my morning plans, everything turned out great; moreover, I got to work on time!

It is a good Friday indeed! As I was walking under the beautifully weathered skies, I was thinking to myself, a matcha latte and brownie would top my day. Kiwi Kitchen, a caterer who has been visiting our office of late had brownies and I decided to indulge. What a great way to wrap up my week and nothing was going according to my initial plans at all.

Thursday, November 8, 2007

BEAUTY IN THE EYES OF THE BEHOLDER

When was the last time you saw something that was simply beautiful and heartwarming? I am not referring to the pretty things that are the products of commercialized consumerism. What I meant was something that was just attractive as it is; nothing fancy, but it comes with a deep value that makes you go "aww..."

A cynic is someone who knows the price of everything and the value of nothing.

Over the past 5 years, I have learned how to appreciate every encounter just they way they are. I am easily entertained and satisfied just by observing my surroundings. I guess I am trying to slow down my living pace and enjoy whatever life brings. My romantic side might have broken the shell of the iron lady, and is slowly tainting my daily experience.

These are the things that I find simply beautiful: an old couple holding hands, the glow and warmth of a good fire, children curious about nature, the conversations between a grandparent and grandchild, watching someone sleep peacefully, the changing of seasons, the moment when loving couples meet, candle lights and cozy settings, and many more.

By mentioning the above, I can not help but to think about romantic gestures that I find attractive and hard to resist. Contrary to what many would think of me, I guess I am a sucker for charm and chivalry. It is always nice to know a few gentleman, for in all cultures their actions and thoughts just blows me away. From simple gestures like getting the door to the generalization of a man treating a woman right, I love it when a guy helps me with my jacket, guide me by the small of my back, is sincere when complimenting how I look, take a moderate sniff in appreciation of the flower before giving it to me, giving me their jackets to ensure I am warm enough, unintentionally smelling my hair and finding it nice... Well, I have been spoiled by having friends who are charming, and had encounters and past relationships that portrayed the aforementioned, so I am not talking about white tigers.

Every girl would like to be swept off their feet and carried off into the moment (at some point in their lives). I am rather simple and plain, and definitely not a tough nut to crack.
A romantic? Right down to the core!

MONEY MATTERS

I need a hard slap on the wrist! "Chaos" can be used to describe my situation right now. Apart from the issue of my landing status, it seems like I have lost control in time and money management.

Good time management is often reflected in my daily routine and the results can be seen physically. With good sleep I look fresh and sharp for the job; with a disciplined routine my physical appearance and the condition of my apartment would be more attractive. Of recently I think there are times when I look like drag-queen or a man, and my apartment... Man! It needs cleaning, and I need to sort out my laundry and closet.

Actually, the slap on the wrist and adding 10 whips with a wet noodle applies to my money management of late. I am receiving a healthy allowance which allows me to save for my future (if I plan and spend wisely). I was on a strict budget until my last trip back at the end of September. Although it is only wise to be well prepared, however, I took a little too much out of my savings for the short time I was back. When I returned to Japan, the full swing of autumn came and I really wanted to go shopping. Then, events lined up over the past few weeks and thus, I have been spending a little over my budget.

I am not complaining. I guess I have to be a little more strict on my spending habits. I am given the opportunity to live in Setgaya-ku, the wealthy district of Tokyo. Everything here is more expensive than everywhere else. Seriously, after being a student here for 4 years, I still live like a student. The prices at the local supermarket are more expensive than what I was used to in Chiba. Having lunch at work is equally expensive as we are located right at the hub of the office district. It is time to exercise smart spending.

If I plan to save JPY X by the end of the year, it will definitely not work. I have to readjust the budget to what I have spent of late. Since I have no idea how long will I be in my current condition, I guess it is only wise if I save as much as I can for my future. I had better limit my food intake to what is necessary and shopping to the vitals. Even by saying that, I need to get some toiletries and groceries....

Man! I am broke... So, the next time you see me spending money frivolously, do shake that finger and show that frown.

Wednesday, November 7, 2007

COPS!!! (Really? It would be the 2nd time in my whole life since any authorities asked me for an ID check)

Never miss a good chance to shut up.

The strangest thing happened during my lunch hour today.
Suyati and I went out for lunch today, so we had Korean food as it was a filling and economical choice. My new favorite lunch spot is at this underground Korean restaurant near Akasaka-Mitsuke Station. The lunch menu is only 500yen after 1pm. Not bad, eh?

Anyways, while we were walking back, we were stopped by 6 men in plain clothes. "Excuse me, do you have your ID?" I was shocked, and then the oldest looking of the group asked me in Japanese whether I was a Japanese national. I honestly answered no. He then continued in Japanese asking whether I had any documents with me. I answered "No. I am currently on training at my company and do not have or carry any of them since I am on my lunch break." He then asked me who do I work for. After telling them, the guy just briefly acknowlegded and move on to ask "How about her?" I answered that Suyati was also on training. However, Suyati had her passport with her and was very coorperative. After looking at her passport, the 6 men thanked us and sent us on our way. How strange!

Having friends who are not too happy with how the Japanese government carry out their checks on foreigners, I was once told that if anyone stops me asking for my documents, I have the right not to show them. Even if I had to, I do not have to pass the documents to them. Returning to the office, I was told that we should have been careful for there are cases where people just wanted to steal one's purse since he or she keeps the documents in it. Since they were in plain clothes, we should have told them that we would only do so if we were at a police box. But seriously, 6 men in plain clothes surrounding 2 helpless young women? You have got to be kidding me.

After relating it to a friend, he mentioned that such checks have been going on quite often of late. The Japanese government also plans to take finger prints and run retina scans for ALL foreigners at airports from November 19. Paranoia? Who knows? But it is sure going to piss off many.

Hmm, maybe having too much Korean food might not be a good thing. I had Korean food at the same restaurant yesterday. Or, maybe I was bitching too loud about my visa status in English. The English would have been a dead give away. WT*? I guess I should really keep my thoughts to myself and not discuss personal matters in public THAT often. Just shut up, woman! I know I could have easily passed off as a Japanese anyday.

Tuesday, November 6, 2007

HOW RUDE!!!

He may look like an idiot, and talk like an idiot, but don't let that fool you. He really is an idiot.

Something bizarre happened on Sunday. It was really strange and I was dumbfounded. I have been in Japan for more than 4 years now, and I hardly ever seen people asking for money on the streets. There are those who pass flyers and advertisements, those who will ask for corporation in taking surveys or blood drives, and those who just want you to visit their store. On Sunday, Sunil and I were crossing the Olympic Memorial Bridge in front of MeiJi Shrine. (It is the place where the manga community or "Funny Retro Extravagant Amusing Kids" congregate at Harajuku.) A Canadian guy walked up to us and started talking to Sunil, asking him for a donation to help his organization and their cause. It was an organization that focuses on reaching out to the young people of Japan: those in correction centers, out on the street, etc. Sunil, being the kind person he is (Well, he is kind enough to keep accepting flyers from JWs almost every Sunday for like the past 3 months now), listened and did make a donation.

Here is where it gets pretty bizarre...

From my observation, the people from this group approached mainly foreigners. Sunil was in his weekend casual wear, but he was approached by them. The Canadian guy only spoke to Sunil even though I was standing right next to Sunil, two feet away from the guy, and facing him. He talked to Sunil for maybe 3-5 minutes, but did not say a word to me; not even a "hello." So, the following weird conclusions popped into my head.

(1) These people aim for the rich.

(2) Since Sunil is not dressed looking like a rich guy, a Japanese girlfriend/date/company next to him shows that he is rich to some extent.

(3) They don't want to talk to me because I am Japanese.

(4) Maybe, I have that look on me that read "Don't ask me for money. I am a mean b*#@h who doesn't care." Who knows?

I am pretty bothered by it for I wonder does the whole incident have anything to do with the first impression I give others... The only time when I remembered a similar awkward moment as such happened was 4 years ago when I broke up with K. We were just right in front of each other but he spoke to a common friend who was standing right next to me but did not say even a word to me. I am shocked, a little appalled, and I thought it was simply rude then, and now.

What killed social etiquette? I thought that he was just an idiot. I apologize if it sounds harsh, but really, he was an idiot!

Monday, November 5, 2007

Zion Festival 2007

My love and joy comes from the gifts from above.

I am forever grateful for the gift of my life at TCU. Over the weekend, I have been out at TCU helping out with Zion Festival and meeting some good old friends from my school days. It was great and I had a fun time. I always look forward to spending time at TCU and participating in every possible event.

Last Saturday was a blast. I went over immediately after work with my gear for the weekend. It was my first time to step into the Faith and Culture Center (FCC) building and my heat skipped a beat in appreciation of the beautiful tea room there. The current Japanese tea ceremony club was running final practices on Friday night and it was an honor to meet the current members.

I stayed over at Motoko's room in the Women's Dorm and memories of dormitory life were brought back to life with the night-long preparation for Zion Festival the next day. Although I knew that some of my graduated buddies were back, I needed the rest and did not hang out with them. However, I did spent the whole night chatting with Motoko instead as we could not sleep after drinking matcha during the practice earlier. Girls slumber party... (*^_^*)

The very next morning, we prepared ourselves for the big day. I must give myself a pat on the back as I still remember and was able to put on my kimono! It has been close to a year and a half since I put the entire gear on. I helped Motoko with hers too. Not bad at all, I dare say. We went to set up the tea room on time right after we were done. Mori-san was adorned in her kimono and even Tadashi was there with his hakama. Everyone who were in the traditional wear looked their best.

I would give a salute and a round of applause to Tadashi, for I am surprise with who has become today. Although we were in different courses, we shared the same academic year back during the TCU days. I still remember vividly the shinny pair of skater jeans he used to wear with his bright red sweatshirt. He was always smiling and extremely energetic in comparison to his twin brother, Makoto. (Oh yes, there are pictures somewhere...) After his graduation in March 2006, he was admitted to TCTS, the seminary at TCI. I wasn't able to attend his wedding since I went back after my graduation. He is now husband to Shiho and will be a dad in February. Now, he is more composed and very much mature from the days of sparkly pants and bright colored tops. It is amazing when we seen each other grow through the passage of time. I am so happy for him.

The same feeling was shared with the other friends I met on Saturday. Zion Festival seems to be the best place for the alumni to catch up and meet people from TCI and church members during out internships. There were many who I was surprised to see and them me.

After we are done with the Japanese Tea Ceremony which lasted for two and half hours, I went to grab some food since I had only a banana since 7am. Thinking that I was able to freeload from Matthew's and Sunil's Burrito stand, I soon find myself helping out too! (Laughs) It was lots of fun. There were so many things going on that I hardly had time to go around and see every stall or meet everyone I wanted to. I made a quick change out of my kimono and had only limited time to spare before meeting Dr. Franklin and Jewel for our appointment.

After everything was over, we had an unexpected dinner party of thirteen at Capriccioza. I was really tired then and the spoilt baby in me turned on the anti-social mood. I was really tired at the end of the day, but I was happy. I rushed home after spending some time with Matthew and Sunil, and spent the night at Baileyna's.

Go ahead and call me sappy and sentimental, but I love my alma mater. I am glad to be back in Japan and do hope that I will be staying here longer. I would deeply appreciate your prayers as I would know the result in this week or next. Have a great week ahead!


Friday, November 2, 2007

Geared Up for Zion Festival Weekend

I self-claim to be the "Ghost of the ACTS-es Program. I am always here and it would take a lot to truly get rid of me."

TCU has truly become my 2nd home. After a crazy week at work and living alone, I get to return to the familiar surroundings and hang out with people I have grown so fond of. I don't have to sleep alone, I get to have long chats with people, hanging out at the usual spots, and freeloading at the dining hall (well, the food is not really the greatest, but I do enjoy the convenience and the conversations at the table).

I find myself heading out to Chiba almost every weekend mainly because I am preparing myself for further studies. My schedule is still rather inclined to TCI events and I sure look forward to attend as many as I can during my time here. The bonus is that I get to hang out with the guys and have the convenience of shopping at familiar spots. Two commented that I am living the life most people dreamed of... Although I whine a lot, I am still thankful.

This week it is ZION FESTIVAL!!! I am so excited about it. I am able to hold on to my word as I did mention before that if I am in Japan, I will definitely be there to help out with the tea ceremony. Thus, I have been lugging this bag of mine to work this morning. I guess I need to spend time tonight to prepare and refresh my memory on how to put on my kimono. I had my gear brought during my short trip back a month ago. Su-Anne was kind enough to send me my "zori" as I forgot them. Oh, it is going to be fun!

I heard that Matthew and Sunil are setting up a burrito stall. Mitsuko is the president of the Zion Festival committee, Motoko will be the chairperson of the afternoon event after the tea ceremony, and I bet there are a lot of events too. Well, after going through 4 years of Zion Festival myself, I know that it would be a long day of activities. Nonetheless, I do look forward to sitting down to my weekly commitments of grammar practice too.

Thus, I will leave this blog entry on a happy note. It is a nice wrap up to another hectic week at work. I have lunch with the boss today but just bought mini sandwiches from Kiwi Kitchen the caterer who has been visiting us daily this week. They are a little costly but scrumptious and goes well when washed down with milk. Yummy.

Counting the hours until I am done for the day... over and out!

Thursday, November 1, 2007

BUNNYTALES Now on Blogger!!!

Ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls... Thank you for your support in following my ramblings on my blog. As a part of organizing my life, I have officially moved to Blogger. This is where I would love to share my journey of life with you.

For my previous blog entries, please check out http://eameus.blogs.friendster.com/bunny_tales/
I will try to run November entries on both sites and will stop Friendster blog site at the end of the month. I am also trying to organize pictures and profiles; and hopefully, everything will be settled by December.

Please be as interactive as possible. I appreciate your time and interest. As I blog and you read, I hope that we will be able to develop a beautiful relationship from henceforth. There will be no barriers for you are always a peer and a friend.